Read positive. See positive. Do internet detox, you can set a small goal, like, no internet for 3 days, 7 days, 30 days. Write it down what you are going to do. Do food detox, like eat only fruits, set a small goal, like, eat only fruits for 3 days, 7 days, 30 days. Be vegetarian. Don't steal. Don't do sexual misconduct. Don't lie, don't use abusive language, don't cause division between people, don't talk idle. Don't drink alcohol or drugs or smoke. Keep putting effort, it will take time. Do meditation (very important). To meditate, sit cross leg, close your eyes, mind will think (wondering here and there), but you just watch the breath, in and out, every time it goes again, bring it back again to breath, doing it again and again, keep doing it, the goal is peace and happiness, see this video on how to meditate - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W5N0AytiUk4. Help others, what you have, you give. Exercise, running, swimming, anything. Get physically strong. If you are fat, then lose the weight, get in shape. Be honest, to others and yourself. If you need help, seek help, don't try to solve problem alone, everyone wants to help you. Meet a doctor. Get out and meet people, go to yoga classes, to places, don't just stay home. Think what you want to do and do it, don't just wish. Everything is impermanence, it will change, suffering and happiness comes and goes, it's just normal. Have hope, no matter how bad it have gotten. Detox music also, 3 days, 7 days, 30 days, no listening and no singing. Write it down what you are going to do. If you don't have a partner, be open to love and friendship. You can still meditate and walk on the path to nibbana after having a partner.
Namo Buddhaya, Namaste, Satsriakal, sawasdee khrab.
